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E = t(d + b) + (kr)^t
Where E is my emotional state, t is time, d is depression, b is boredom, k is just some constant, and r is all my regrets. As t approaches infinity...well, you get the point. *sigh...

Two girls came up to my house asking for donations for the cancer thing, and I didn't realize that I was donating until after I pulled the 20 out of my wallet. I really gotta think things through more clearly next time, haha. Not that I didn't want to donate, but errr, 20 dollars... =/ Oh well, at least it was for a good cause, lol.

I'm getting so bored at home, and it's really not helping that I have a bigass data assignment due in a week that I've barely started. Ahhhh, life sucks!!! Actually, I'm really relaxed right now because I don't have any of the little annoying assignments to worrry about anymore, and all the big things are just too much for me to handle, so I'm just sitting here moping away the hours...

I swear, it's absolutely impossible. I tried and failed, it's like there's nothing left I can do.

Deep thought of the day: You won't know night from day until you wake up from a dream that you wish would never end.

Aight, that's all for now.

Trying on tuxedos is kinda interesting. When I went there today, they started doing measurements on me right in the middle of the store while I just kinda stared out into the rest of the mall. At least I finally got it done. I ended up choosing like ALL the patterns and outfit that my mom didn't want, hilarious. Oh well, at least I like the outfit!

I started going from store to store in the mall looking for job applications at random stores. I ended up asking Guess, Gap, Roots, Shopper's, Second Cup, and HMV. I was kinda surprised that Gap was the only one that had actual job applications, but in the end I was kinda glad because filling it out felt as stupid as filling out those retarded university supplementary forms. At least I finally handed in my resume to Gap today, and hopefully they'll call back! *fingers crossed*

And as Sean would say, "He's not Asian, he's like friggin' Korean!"

Deep thought of the day: Food tastes better when you're in a good mood, thus you are what you eat.

Aight, that's all for now.

Another day goes by, I don't get anything done as usual...oh well.

I finally have a program to compile my stupid java program so that I can actually do some work at home now. Perhaps I'll cram tomorrow night to finish the stupid solar system assignment because I'm certainly done with it for tonight (ugh...). Once I get this out of the way, gotta start prepping for my other assignments and stuff that I really don't care about anymore...*sigh

Ahhhhh.....!

Deep thought of the day: There's no point in holding back when you want to endulge.

Aight, that's all for now.

I'm not watching the hockey game, but I'll assume the leafs are winning/won. Woot!

More good news...I got accepted to UT St. George AND UTSC!!! OWNAGE!!! Haha, I'm so happy now, even though I haven't gotten any of the Waterloo admissions, which really are the only ones I want. But it's okay, my parents are still happy if I don't get into Waterloo, and I'm certainly satisfied with co-op management at UTSC, which is currently top choice!

Still waiting for...
Waterloo math accounting
Waterloo arts accounting
Waterloo acturial science
Queens commerce (pffft, who cares about this one...haha)

Deep thought of the day: If you've hit the bottom, the only direction left is to go back up.

Aight, that's all for now!

*sighz...

Is it really time to relax? It seems that marks are in, yet I'm still stressing over trying to finish random assignments and projects. Realistically, I could just stop caring because I'm starting to detest attending some of my classes. I already know I've got a rather busy workload lined up this week because of the stupid solar systems assignment due for computers. Afterwards...data? That'll take a weekend and a weekday night I guess. I'm not too concerned about presentations and stuff (those I can really just wing anyways).

I'm not even thinking about school and I'm stressed. I want to leave high school so badly, yet there's one thing that keeps making me want to stay.

Let's see, what else is goin' on...

Last day to get a prom date, cuz of limo arrangements and stuff...oh well, looks like I'm goin' solo. Big deal.

Hmm...I'm incredibly tired, haven't gotten nearly enough sleep for the past couple of weeks in particular.

I guess I should just look forward to university and try to forget all of high school so I wouldn't need to feel so depressed. Kinda pathetic in it's way, whatever.

Deep thought of the day: Why hope when there's despair?

Aight, that's all for now.

Hmm...didn't blog yesterday. Almost didn't blog today.

Anyways.

So on saturday me and Lo went to Sean's house to do a little bit of cooking. Why? It was kind of planned a couple days ago I guess, I was ambitious and Sean is always up for something new. So anyways, we got groceries, came home, and started cooking!

Let's just say we're not the best cooks. We started out baking a cake from cake mix, and what should've taken 5 minutes took us more like half an hour, deciding what to put in when, how to put it in, what bowl to use, whether or not to use the whisk...geez! Then we made instant vanilla pudding, which looked more like jizz than anything else, but at least we could kind of follow instructions for that, considering it was just pudding powder and milk, lol.

For dinner, we decided to make grilled cheese sandwiches. Now, these aren't your typical "one slice of cheese between bread" grilled cheese sandwiches, these were genuine SLK (Sean, Lo, and Ken) style grilled cheese sandwiches. We ended up putting tomatoes, black forest ham, processed cheese slices, wonderbread, butter, onion powder, garlic powder, chili powder, pepper, lettuce, and mustard...on our simple grilled cheese sandwiches. Mmm!!! Okay, the first one tasted pretty good, but once we got to the seconds, the cheese was just too much for our stomachs to handle. 3 slices of melted processed cheese per sandwich just doesn't settle very well! For dinner drinks, we had our strawberry banana smoothies, except Sean almost completely reversed the correct order for putting the ingrediants in the blender! Oh well, they still tasted great though.

Finally, we settled down to watch Matrix 3 while drinking coke floats. After the movie, played pool, and started on the cake! We spread the settled ji...I mean, vanilla pudding onto the top of the cake as some sort of make-shift icing. That didn't work so well, but at least we had jizz cake for dessert, and it was alright!

So to sum it all up, we can't cook, but we can still try. Next weekend...we'll see.

Deep thought of the day: Optimize your hours of life by optimizing your hours of sleep. Thus, I'll be dead by 34.

Aight, that's all for now!

Caberet!!!

...was okay. I won't lie. This was the worst caberet line up I've seen in my four years of high school. Oh well, maybe it's just that I'm being a lot more critical about the acts now since I'm older and that I'm expecting a fabulous show. Also that last year's caberet kicked ass compared to this year. Meh.

It's funny how I tried out for 3 acts, and the act that had the least practice was the one that got in. In fact, the skit and song me and Chen performed was completely put together the night before, and we had a brief practice at lunch time. That doesn't matter though...the important thing is, the people loved it! I think.

Anyways, it was an alright night overall. Was a little screwy with the sop, but s'all good.

Deep thought of the day: Regardless of how well you perform, someone will always commend you for trying.

Aight, that's all for now!

Deep thought of the day: You can only despair as much as you hope, but your hopes aren't limited to your despairs.

Deep thought of the day: Look into the mirror and you'll see the result of what you haven't done.

Deep thought of the day: Life is full of endlessly taunting opportunities that claw at your mind until you take them.

Deep thought of the day: It's easy to see what the right decision is. We just choose not to make it.

Deep thought of the day: If a picture is worth a thousand words, then a dream is indescribable.

Aight, that's all for now.

Grrrrr!!! My marks got FUCKED as I found out today. And I'm talking about the marks that are going in. I won't complain about the ones that changed 1 or 2 %...big deal.

My computers dropped 4% from one fucking assignment! What kind of screwed up assignment is worth 16%?! It was worth more than my computers fucking ISP!!! How did this happen? Me and Drew wrote probably the best program (efficiency-wise), and we neglected writing a stupid algorithm. So what happens? 0/10 on communication, which was worth 5% of THE OVERALL YEAR MARK! WOAH!!! Like fuck, so now we both plummet, plus there's this stupid Part A of the assignment which is show all the fucking steps in the program, and WE FUCKING DO, but noooooooo Mr. A doesn't want it that way!!! BOO FUCKING HOO GEEEZ!!! Had to stay in two lunches in a row to salvage some 50%'s to save our marks, hoooly fuck.
9.5/10, 6.5/10, 5/10
SHIT! So now I go in with a 76 in computers, but luckily for me I don't need to enter computers into my top 6. Unfortunately for my partner, computers was one of his highest marks, and he plummeted more than me, and that was one of his top 6 going into university. My apologies my friend, but I think we BOTH know that those two other sections were either done or COMPLETELY POINTLESS!

Like, FUCKING HELL! *sigh

Aight, that's all for now.

Okay, I fucked up my blog template, that's why I haven't posted for a while, afraid to publish. I don't know if everything on it still works, but I guess we'll see after this first post in a while =).

Aight, that's all for now.